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Real life... Awesome graphics, shitty gameplay.
by jaffacake
( 24, Female from Land of ze Scots with kilts and haggisses? Haggii? )
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stars and soulmates.
01-29-12 05:09 PM
stars are curious things.
i look up at them, the ones that manage to say "FUCK YOU!" to the light pollution, and i wonder.
i wonder if someone in some other overpopulated city can see the ones that i see.
i dislike my life right now. i don't like all the unresolved anger i have in me. yes, about my job, about my love life, about the fact that a) i haven't had sex in 5 months, and b) the last time i had it, it was with dave, about my family.
and to know that there's someone else out there, someone that i would drop everything for, someone that i would lay everything on the line for, who feels exactly the same way i do, it just kills. so fucking hard.
do you guys believe in soulmates? someone you were meant to be with for the rest of your life? i never used to, but that's mostly because i never thought a guy could be my soulmate. and i think i'm right. i could never get my head around guys. there was always something i didn't know. whereas with katie, there's just.. so much openness. she knows everything about me, and i know everything about her. she's the only person in the world that i can knowingly spill my guts to, (besides you guys), and not have to deal with any recoil. she just.. accepts me. every side of me.
i can't imagine my life without her. i'd be so lost.
it's strange though. when a guy gets emo on me, instant thought is "GROW SOME FUCKING BALLS." but if it was her, i'd ache inside. she never gets emo with me, though. she talks about things and that's fine, and i give her advice where i can, but she never gets so pissy about it, or blames everyone else for anything that's directly her fault. she's such a strong woman. we've helped each other so fucking much in the four short years that i've known her, and she's so.. lovely, and inspirational. it fucking SUCKS that she lives so far away. there have been so many many many times in the past year where i've only ever wanted to hold her and tell her that everything will be okay.
i really need to stop listening to faber drive. it's making me tear up so much.
i look up at them, the ones that manage to say "FUCK YOU!" to the light pollution, and i wonder.
i wonder if someone in some other overpopulated city can see the ones that i see.
i dislike my life right now. i don't like all the unresolved anger i have in me. yes, about my job, about my love life, about the fact that a) i haven't had sex in 5 months, and b) the last time i had it, it was with dave, about my family.
and to know that there's someone else out there, someone that i would drop everything for, someone that i would lay everything on the line for, who feels exactly the same way i do, it just kills. so fucking hard.
do you guys believe in soulmates? someone you were meant to be with for the rest of your life? i never used to, but that's mostly because i never thought a guy could be my soulmate. and i think i'm right. i could never get my head around guys. there was always something i didn't know. whereas with katie, there's just.. so much openness. she knows everything about me, and i know everything about her. she's the only person in the world that i can knowingly spill my guts to, (besides you guys), and not have to deal with any recoil. she just.. accepts me. every side of me.
i can't imagine my life without her. i'd be so lost.
it's strange though. when a guy gets emo on me, instant thought is "GROW SOME FUCKING BALLS." but if it was her, i'd ache inside. she never gets emo with me, though. she talks about things and that's fine, and i give her advice where i can, but she never gets so pissy about it, or blames everyone else for anything that's directly her fault. she's such a strong woman. we've helped each other so fucking much in the four short years that i've known her, and she's so.. lovely, and inspirational. it fucking SUCKS that she lives so far away. there have been so many many many times in the past year where i've only ever wanted to hold her and tell her that everything will be okay.
i really need to stop listening to faber drive. it's making me tear up so much.
Current Music: -=- Second Chance -=- Faber Drive -=-
Current Mood: Frustrated
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