I'm having anxiety (I think/hope) so sometimes writing here helps lessen the jittery feelings I have.  Sometimes it makes it worse.  We'll see how we do.

The reason why I hope it's anxiety is because that'll go away.  I'm nervous it's that stupid stomach virus v2.0 going around.  I woke up this morning at 745 (I've been waking up way too early lately) with a LOT of gas and nausea and dizziness.  I was eventually able to fall back asleep for about an hour and then woke up with the McGurgles.  I think it's just anxiety over dress shopping today.  I think it's gonna be fun but I'm also nervous.  About what, I don't entirely know.  I may need a xanax today.

I have a lot of errands to do today, so I'm gonna try and keep this short so I can get going on that.  Sometimes fresh (COLD) air helps get rid of the anxiety, so I should try that, too.

Craig's down in Florida at a convention now.  He flew down yesterday and got there safely.  Otherwise you wouldn't be hearing from me, because there's not enough xanax in the world that would get me through that lol.  It's a weird feeling knowing he's so far away.  Like I was walking out of work last night and I just felt... empty.  Like I had no one to fall back on almost.  It was weird.  Felt like I was single again, which is strange to say, but that's what popped into my head.

He texted me last night saying he wishes he could come home already.  He leaves tomorrow, so it's not a long time away from home.  I'm watching the house for him, I told him there was nothing to worry about.  He replied, "No, I know.  I just don't like being so far away from  you."  Aww, he's cute.

Blech I feel so yucky.  I just want to sleep again.  But seriously, I have to do shit and get over this anxiety crap.  Maybe I better just take a xanax now.  Well no I have to drive to do my errands, maybe I'll take it after.  Gahhhhhh.

I'm fuckin freaking out.

P.S., Ladies, did you hear Pfizer had to recall some of it's oral birth control pills?  If you're taking BC, check the manufacturer, and if it's Pfizer (or Akrimax), you may need to return your pills.  I couldn't find much info on it on Pfizer's website, but here's the article from MSNBC: http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/46227973/ns/health-womens_health/

 

And that's my update for now.  I'm fuckin nervous about today man Jesus Christ.  Serenity now!